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Shazdot. dot. dot. where the feck did all these dots come from?! November 04 My first time… In an ambulanceMy first time… In an ambulance - 02/11/06
So, I’m thinking “Yeah I’ll go and give blood. Why? Because I’m a nice person! That’s why!” I’m afraid life is never as straightforward as you wish. My first mistake – wrong location; I went to East Ham town hall instead of Ilford town hall. And you know what the worst thing is? I tried to think “be time-wise Shazza it’ll do you a world of good”. Ha! What a lie! Let’s put it this way I believed the blood station was at East Ham because I could a) meet Jen outside the college b) drop my bothersome brother off to his swimming lesson
So off I head, a slight delay as Sobia needed to visit her rather tall history teacher (even though I do have a GCSE in the subject, I still felt short and stupid for the 10 agonising minutes they spent discussing communism!), we meet Amer on the bus and have a strangely surreal conversation about all the pet hates we share. Actually, come to think of it, it was more of a joint counselling session more than anything. Maybe one day I’ll be able to share the painful playground memories of my childhood my dear children, but that is indeed a tale for another day,
I hop on the bus to East Ham, drop the brat off at the leisure centre and meet Jen – you can’t miss her “fabulous” purple hair! And the huge suitcase of hairdressing equipment she has to lug around with her!) We soon realise, to my horror, that the blood donations are taking place in Ilford so we head off for Ilford. 45 minutes and a sore hand later (I hit a passing 474 because the bus driver refused to acknowledge the fact that I WANT TO GET ON THE BUS! Oh such a fool, I am!)
We finally arrive at Ilford town hall, an hour and 10 minutes later than anticipated. We wait in line, I fill out my form, I get to see my blood sink! “Care to explain?” I hear you cry! Calm down, I shall. You have a tiny tiny tiny drop of your blood put into CuSO4 which is copper sulphate by the way, and now for the “sciency” bit. If your blood contains enough iron (found in red blood cells) then the drop will sink, and therefore you are healthy enough to give blood. Simple, right?
I gave my blood, Jen leaves early as her mum wants her home before it gets dark, and I then leave. You see my mum also called me saying – or yelling rather: “IT’S SEVEN THIRTY WHY AREN’T YOU HOME YET” so I decide I can’t stay for tea and biscuits and head for the bus stop. That’s my mistake. When giving blood you should always eat before AND after. Or, like me, you’ll pass out while waiting for the 86!
Well I am a bit strange (but you already know that!) and I have a bizarre habit of telling people I am about to faint. So my head start to feel like a kite, swaying in the wind. I accidentally walked into the road and realised “Nope. Road is dangerous, back to the pavement for me” and I turn to the man next to me and say “I’m. Going. To. Faint.” And what do these nice people do? Take a big step back. So I’m thinking “Fine, I’ll just do this alone shall I?” and I reach out for the shiny red safety of the bus stop seating. What a way to shoot myself in the foot! I ended up hitting my head not only on the seat, but also on the concrete!
So when I wake up I say the most stupidest things.
But when I think about it I got some rather stupid sayings back!
Being in the ambulance was weird. I was told I had to get my head checked as I’d hit it so hard. The paramedics were really nice (which is a theory of mine – the nicest people in the world, i.e. paramedics, get the worst treatment, i.e. from some drunk guy trying to thump them). Well it seems a bit ________________________ but that’s the story of my first time in an ambulance! as i'm on this thought train i'd like to say thankyou to reni, i know he doesn't read this but this is more a reminder for me 'cause i can always talk to his, no matter how trivial the matter may seem he's always there for me! there's something about her wrists.... i am gonna go and prepare my lesson plan for the year 8s tomorrow... and then maybe some ironing... or sleep ... probably sleep... and i really should write in my diary some more.. i feel he's rather neglected! poor sod buuuuuubyeeeeee! October 27 well hello!well hello!! i thought i'd begin with ... I FRICKEN LOVEN THIS TO FRICKEN BITS! there i feel SO much better now!! erm i'd say google it but the current net phase is You-Tube-ing stuff... so yeah ... DO THAT! or ask me i'll send it to you... or is that illegal?  "Hey There Delilah" by The Plain White Tees Hey there Delilah What's it like in New York City? I'm a thousand miles away But girl tonight you look so pretty Yes you do Time Square can't shine as bright as you I swear it's true Hey there Delilah Don't you worry about the distance I'm right there if you get lonely Give this song another listen Close your eyes Listen to my voice it's my disguise I'm by your side Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me What you do to me Hey there Delilah I know times are getting hard But just believe me girl Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar We'll have it good We'll have the life we knew we would My word is good Hey there Delilah I've got so much left to say If every simple song I wrote to you Would take your breath away I'd write it all Even more in love with me you'd fall We'd have it all Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me A thousand miles seems pretty far But they've got planes and trains and cars I'd walk to you if I had no other way Our friends would all make fun of us and we'll just laugh along because we know That none of them have felt this way Delilah I can promise you That by the time we get through The world will never ever be the same And you're to blame Hey there Delilah You be good and don't you miss me Two more years and you'll be done with school And I'll be making history like I do You know it's all because of you We can do whatever we want to Hey there Delilah here's to you This ones for you Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me What you do to me. now this is the kinda song you'd wanna play over and over til your sick of it ... but i'm trying to avoid that particular path.... instead i'm listening to a me-and-lou song ... Drops Of Jupiter - Train love love love hmm i think i'll finish off them damn logs... haven't even finished Cold Mountain ... AND BY THE WAY IT AIN'T THAT BAD... well it's good if you like long winded beautiful solitary descriptions... and symbolism *grin grows on Shaz's face*  hehe ok toodle pop!! Shaz xx October 26 wo0p!hey hey
well jenny, harsha, hasmita and i went to Camden Town
well
in the morning went with my lovely nanny and granddad to
a) sell his shares
b) open up an account for me n my nan - bonus saver (1.4% interest... or at least i think it is!!)
then we all met up and got the tube 2 camden ... which is SO hard when i am SO easily confused... EASTbound... WESTbound?
wtf
my little brother is such a tard... brb
ok need to keep it short i'll expand l8r in another colour
camden - good
photos with ickle nile - wo0p!
ickle baby - i want 1!!
helping man on tube - see not all kids from manor park'll try to rob u!!
ok enough 4 now
much luff
Shaz xx
October 24 :)Why won’t Norton leave me alone?! Argh I’m resorting to MS word yet again…. This is just damn annoying Hmmm more music crap?
Don’t stop me now – Queen
Ahh the love of queen we all secretly have… there’s no denying it!
Valerie – The Zutons
The Zutons like to burrow into your head and strike you when you least expect …
Children of the revolution – T-Rex
J It has got just one of those brilliant beginnings!
Time to waste- Alk3
Aw this is a song and a half … Well it’s a song (u eedjit!) and it’s just perfection … We love matt Skiba … well I do SO HANDS OFF BITCHES! (Hehe James – THE POST IT NOTE!) Well… private study + Shaz + James + Keziah + post it notes = J hehe
Iris – Goo goo dolls
Such a husky voice… well this is the acoustic version ahh tis good
Union City blues – Blondie
I love this but I don’t think it’s as well known as Call Me … or One Way…
Space oddity – David Bowie
All Bowie tracks: a) Make me wonder how you pronounce his second name AND b) remind me of Grace, Mr Smith and Sobia
ATWA – SOAD
Ahh I’ve been listening to SOAD all day … hehe doing my ironing of all things! (Has anyone figured out how to iron them tops with a vest on the inside – attached – and a sort of wrap layer on the top?! I SWEAR IT’S BEYOND ME!)
Danger keep away – Slipknot
A song to drown in
Maar Dala – Devdas…
Don’t mess. Tis a good film! Hehe
Lithium – Nirvana
I have this scribbled on my periodic table for some reason
Time is running out – Muse
OMG I want... no NEED to hug him! I want I want I want! Hmm and Brandon Flowers And Billie Joe Armstrong And the drummer from Razorlight And the drummer from Coldplay ……………………….
Lol and many others….
Creep – Radio head
Another song I once liked to drown in … and I still do … last time was on the 169 … that was weird…
Toxicity – SOAD
I wish Ella were here so we could sing this together – oh the pain! My heart breaks!
ENJOY THE SILENCE – LACUNA COIL (COVER OF DEPECHE MODE)
I actually heard this a while ago a few years back when Depeche mode re-released it and now lacuna coil have done this BRILL cover I love it … it’s now my current official anthem! Hmm it’d be hilarious to play this at my funeral…
My tombstone: “ENJOY THE SILENCE… she’s finally shut up!”
I don’t want to be buried I want a tomb like Appupa’s brother (my granddad’s brother)
By the way – RHCP
Ahh bliss
Something in the way she moves – The Beatles
My more favourite of their creations…
Yellow – Coldplay = HAPPY SONG
Lola – The Kinks
Lol I LOVE singing this to Lola – YES PEOPLE I KNOW A LOLA … SHE’S IN MY YEAR AND IS LOVERLY! And yes I intended to spell it that way!!)
And Claire’s lickle bro likes this song too!! But it’s cause he likes s girl called Lola … apparently... I think it’s just a ploy MWHAHAHAHA!
Papercut – Linkin Park
Love this it’s just so…. GOOD! Some don’t like Linkin Park but oh well… I don’t like … ahem sorry I meant DETEST Akon… it even pains me to write his damn name… I just can’t stand him!
The fallen – Franz Ferdinand
GOOD. STUFF.
Dancing in the street - Mick Jagger + David Bowie
TOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD …
Under pressure – David Bowie + Queen
I love it …. Don’t knock it or I’ll… I’ll … I’ll knock you! I mean it! Go ask some doors how hard I can knock!!
‘IT’S THE TERROR OF KNOWING WHAT THIS WORLD IS ABOUT; WATCHING SOME GOOD FRIENDS SCREAM “LET ME OUT!”’
You’re beautiful – James Blunt
A few points: · I can remember sitting at the front for NRA and Claudio and Keneeza started singing this when Ms Leb was on stage… it was so erm … I dunno we all sang together … and she was crying… what’s the word? Touching… I can also remember Mr Riaz saying “You better not make me cry!” just before we went to give our little speech… it wasn’t bad considering I had just a few main points and jokes on a post it note – a pink lip shaped one I think it was … courtesy of MJ!! · JAMES BLUNT SWEARS IN THIS! I thought u oughta know! · ‘James Blunt’ is rhyming slang… hehe
Ridin’ Dirrty – Chamillionaire
I like the song but WTF is up with pronunciation of this guy’s name…?!
From the floorboards up – Paul Weller I LOVE this… and the last time I heard it outside the house was in … NEW LOOK! OF ALL PLACES! Wo0p!
California dreamin’ – The Mamas and Papas
THIS IS A DRIVING SONG… Even if I can’t drive yet lol … I need to sort out that stuff… but there’s only one person who seems to think the same as I do … Fahaad … I really can’t be asked … but it seems everyone else in the world wants to get their damn driving licences… ha-ha I even recall this TOTAL bull-shit story about how someone apparently learnt to drive at the age of 14… then again you shouldn’t believe what she says anyway!
Omg! Malayalee side of me slipping out again!
Lol I made this joke on the way home from this Nanotechnology lecture @ UCL (which was SO cool btw!)
So Adeel is Kashmiri which apparently gives him the right – in his own words – “to diss Indian and Pakistani people!”, so I go … “Well you can’t diss a Malayalee… another Malayalee will surely beat you to it!”
And that’s the gospel truth!
Aw my finger’s are cold again I’m gonna quit this 4 a while….
J hellohello and may i just begin with a SCREAM! RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH life is generally sucking first off... world war 473,382,793 in my household = me not being allowed to go to camden with owen and stu and jen.. secondly ... i had a blog going but it seems to have disppeared on the face of the web.... THIRDLY MY GOOD FOR NOTHING HYPOCHONDRIAC OF A PC KEEPS GIVING ME GODDAMN WARNINGS ABOUT SOME SUPPOSED VIRUS... YET THE FOOL DECIDES TO DO NOTHING.... YOU HEAR ME PC YOU'RE JUST A FOOL .... A GODAMN FOOL! there now that's out lets try and start another blog... i know i was using my playlist as inspiration.... Spitfire - The Prodigy (is there a the? i dunno i .... DUNNO  )"if i was in world war two, they'd call me spit fire!" well it's pretty much applicable to the events of yesterday night... Firestarter.. prodigy well i went off on one and used a pin and lighter to attempt to burn the word F U C K onto my fingers.... but it hasn't come out brilliantly... well it was a stoopid idea anyway... but i'll have to finish it off properly later... slither... velvet revolver me in bed? lol haha sorry couldn't think of a suitable link... hmmm " Yeah, here comes the water It comes to wash away the sins of you and I" well.... i came up with this thing earlier... You my child, one day will be the end of me Yet a suitable end for thee is sin Is the true sin, murder? Or is it mine own suicide? well i think it's good! we'll text it 2 gracie and see... she's my poetry buddy though my poems are more often than not ... TOTAL SHITE! BYOB - SOAD hmmm she loves john... *drools* hmmm THERE'S AN ARMENIAN SHOP IN EAST HAM! hmmm love this song in general hmmm love jake nava ... he produced (?) the video ... and also Beyonce's - Crazy in love... with jay z.... madonna - like a prayer awwww love this! brill song! hmm i did a class with my year 8s on sunday about madge's adoption situation... i know she's trying to do the right thing but when a set of people share a trend or trait .... the public get suspicious.. hehe you know what i think is hilarious that the general public seem to "OK" a new trend in the tribe of celeb before it is deemed acceptble by ye olde media! SOAD - pyscho hmmm bass at beginning - i need to sort me out them lessons! sum 41 - pieces (acoustic) if anyone reading this has heard of dane cook you'll know what i mean... and if u don't know of the man i suggest you "You-Tube" it... hmmm hasn't got the same erm ring? as "GOOGLE IT!" HEHE a key phrase in the Shazonary PHONE CALL! ooh its hasmita!! brb *** i find my self yelling at my brothers to SHUT UP all the time now... and when i hear myself i just think of.... Mr Skimming lol thats what this approach will be called ... the i-don't-really-give-a-shit-if-you're-going-to-kill-each-other-just-make-sure-i-don't-hear-you! approach to "parenting" well that isn't fair in itself i'm not their parent... *** ok i just came on ... typed A WHOLE LOAD OF STUFF and this son of a bitch machine has decided to crash meaning i've lost ALL THAT EFFORT and i'm going to blame someone i hate this person for ruining my evening ... i hate this person so much i want to inflict some pain ... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH i'm so fucking pissed well i can remember typin stuff bout music... i'll do this short hand and expand when i feel the need to seven nation army jasdeep he gave me the tabs .... twas the first thing i learnt on my own ... on grace's guitar at this music project thing... ismatun - i don't think i ever actually sent it to her though she always told me to!! dhanya - air guitar .. period. LOL i wanna dance with somebody ella - she loved that song elisha, mittal - we sang this on the way home in the rain!! erm basket case - greenday OHH YES this is what it's about owen! OLD SKOOL SHIT! LOL lets not forget i was after all a greenday whore.... i still am!! lol even IF mez don't believe it!! i just love this song... hmmm another mem. me n jas in the lunch queue and Ms Chadwick - coolest drama teacher on the planet, all hail, all hail! - came ove holding the album in her hand and we all just smiled CAUSE IT'S TRUEEEEEE hehe Do you have the time to listen to me whine About nothing and everything all at once I am on oh those Melodramatic fools Neurotic to the bone no doubt about it Sometimes i give myself the creeps Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me It all keeps adding up I think I'm cracking up Am I just paranoid? I'm just stoned I went to a shrink To analyze my dreams She says it's lack of sex that's bringing me down I went to a whore He said my live's a bore And quit no whining cause it's bringing her down Grasping to control So you better hold on
we love em we doooooo which also reminds me of the other older greednay songs i love... at the library i kno mj likes this one aswell "Hey there lookin’ at me.. rejectTell me what do you see... But you quickly turn your head away... Try to find the words I could use, Don’t have the courage to come up to you. My chance is looking a bit grey... Starting across the room: are you leaving soon? I just need a little time... What is that drives me mad!? Girls like you that I never had! What is it about you that I adore? What makes me go so insane That makes me feel so much pain? What is it about you that I adore? Why did you have to leave so soon? Why did you have to walk away? Oh, well, it happened again.. She walked away with her boyfriend Maybe we’ll meet again someday... Someday... " hmmm yeah someday... if only .... no i'm not just fantasisng about billie joe... i'm just saying in general... is true love all that practical does such an idea still function today? in a society of such loose and frankly shitty morals? SHUT UP SHAZ "Who the hell are you to tell me what I am and what's my master plan.
What makes you think that it includes you? Self-righteoous wealth Stop flattering yourself, 'cause when the smoke clears here I am. Your reject all -American. Sucking up your social sect, making you a nervous wreck. To hell and back and hell again I've gone. You're not my type. Not my type. What's the difference between you and me? I do what I want, and you do what you're told. So listen up and shut the hell up. It ain't no big deal. and I'll see you in hell, 'cause when the smoke clears here I am, your reject all-American. Falling from grace, right on my face. To hell and back and hell again I've gone. " dominated love slave "I want to be your dominated love slave I want to be the one that takes the pain You can spank me when I do not behave Mack me in the forehead with a chain Cause I love feelin’ dirty And I love feelin’ cheap And I love it when you hurt me So drive those staples deep I want you to slap me and call me naughty Put a beltsander against my skin I want to feel pain all over my body Can’t wait to be punished for my sins. " good riddance (time of your life) "Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road. Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go. So make the best of this test, and don't ask why. It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time. It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life. So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind. Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time. Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial. For what it's worth, it was worth all the while. It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life." ha ha you're dead! "Ha Ha you're dead And I'm so happy In loving memory Of your demise When your ship is going down I'll go out and paint the town ... (ha ha ha) - love that laugh!! Ha Ha you're dead The joke is over You were an asshole And now you're gone As your ship is going down I'll stand by and watch you drown Ha Ha you're dead You're gonna be dead Just remember what I said Ha Ha you're dead Ha Ha you're dead Ha Ha you're dead" king for a day "Started at the age of four My mother went to the grocery store Went sneaking through her bedroom door to find something in a size four Sugar and spice and everything nice wasn't made for only girls GI Joe in panty hose is making room for the one and only ... King for a day, princess by dawn King for a day in a leather thong King for a day, princess by dawn Just wait 'til all the guys get a load of me ... My daddy threw me in therapy He thinks I'm not a real man Who put the drag in the drag queen Don't knock it until you tried it Sugar and spice and everything nice wasn't made for only girls ... Just wait 'til all the guys Just wait 'til all the guys Just wait 'til all the guys get a load of me" she "She
She screams in silence A sullen riot penetrating through her mind Waiting for a sign to smash the silence With the brick of self-control" macy's dat parade "When I was kid I thought
Wanted all the things that haven't want Oh but I learned the hardest way" aw poor baby - i THINK this is referring 2 billie joe's dad who died when he was really young... ok the whore in me is coming out again... lol i had this sticker on and shahed asks "is that ur hourly rate?" naughty boy ... we all know what's on his mind then!! argh the above text is refusing to change back to black... i hate u PC.... i hate u .... hmmm it's 12.18... i'm hungry .. but not tired... i'm not going to eat .. there isn't anything decent... lol not even bread... it's weird usually the oj finishes first but it's totally backwards today .. MORE MUSIC STUFFS chasing cars lol i was going 2 type snow play... i think it's cause their songs always make me want a hug... like yellow and the scientist and run - which is by snow PATROL i think the scientist is about an adoring fan well a little bit does lemme show ya! "Come up to meet you, Tell you I’m sorry, You don’t know how lovely you are (you're so sweet coming to see me.. sorry i'm late BLAH BLAH - like what would happen when stars sign stuff for fans outside a concert u can picture soaked fans and Chris Martin so warm and nice in personality warming them with his presence) I had to find you, Tell you I need you, Tell you I set you apart Tell me your secrets, And ask me your questions, Aww let’s go back to the start Runnin’ in circles, [sounds like] Comin’ our tails, Heads on the science apart Nobody said it was easy It’s such a shame for us to part (as in the artists feel islolated from their audience... the bigger u get this can happen literally AND metaphorically) Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be this hard (as in fame is difficult to handle?) Aww take me back to the start " hmm yellow is such a beautiful song... so many things come to mind... usually happy stuff 4 me, yellow is a beautiful bright happy colour!! start me up - rolling stones... it's so funny you see all these really young girls with these tees on and i really sincerely doubt they realise where that symbol comes from... unless it's plagarised ooh .. my phones a retard a message from jas @ 11.22 has just arrived now... maybe i - like my mother before me - dropped it one too many times...!! rhcp - tell me baby.. love the vid love the song HATE the radio edit.... I HATE WHEN SONGS ARE MAULED JUST TO SATISFY... who the hell is it meant to satisfy? i mean radio djs are surely employed because they have a passion for music... RIGHT?! i mean they do it to both the end of wake me up ... and blvd of broken dreams WTF MAN! lol in the words of jenny!! i'm sure there are other examples but due to my little greenday epic above i've got greenday on the mind!! .... i like big butts - shrek OST STU KNOWS ALL THE WORDS! ALL HAIL! CHAZ KNOWS ALL THE WORDS ALL HAIL! erm yeh alkaline trio - she took him to the lake October 09 just another manic mondayhello! greetings all i'm sitting here rather pissed off
me: hey instead of having the typical "guy-stalking-girl" scenario.... let's have a girl following another girl
other useless shit-for-brains fuckwits go: NO! WE CAN'T HAVE LESBIANS IT'S TOO *whispers* extreme.... AT WHAT POINT DID I MENTION A SEXUAL RELATIONSHIP?!
Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation.
Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: hello OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: ello OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: u kool hun?
OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe is using a version of Messenger that does not support Voice Clips.
Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: not bad not good Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: just meh Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: how r u ? OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: erm pretty good ... i wasnt good few weeks ago i fink ma trip dwn 2 london paid off Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: ahh i c Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: at least u have that OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: yeh coll is REALLY good OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: i love it OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: wot bout u? settling in good? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: people are too bitchy for me Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: it's hard OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: im sure u've made some really nice mates tho Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i thought they were nice Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: but then they show u how they really are OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: no matter how bitchy a place is u always get nice ppl.... 4 me i can tell by name OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: drop me some names i'll confirm ur suspicions OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: (cant spell) Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: owen Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: lol ermmmm owen sounds.... REALLY KOOL OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: sorry go on lol Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: he's ok though ... i guess Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: he's nice and all Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: just .... addicted to the mirror OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: LOL vain dude? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: yes Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: very OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: sounds a bit like me Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: but a prettty sight i must say... just not durable... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: ah... i c OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: i only do that if theres a special certain sum1 2 look good 4 OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: otherwise.... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i like natural beauty OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: u sure this dude dnt like a certain special sum1? OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: for example u OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: no way Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: outta my league... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: god i hate that expression Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: but yes Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: out. of. my. league. OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: as innnnnnnnn OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: 2 good 4 u? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: yeh Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: too ... dainty .... pretty.... OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: omggggggg thas stoopid Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: im serious Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: how? OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: theres no such thing as outta ur league Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: there is Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i don't do the whole preety girl thing... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: and none of them lot understand that OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: i hate them gals hu do... some go to sum extreme lengths Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: but some do it effortlessly OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: like bleaching faces, adding false lashes OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: WHY GOD? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: and thats what theses people are all about Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: it's just something i have to deal with OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: i understand make up GOD KNOWS I DO havin a sis but why go thru layers of foundation? OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: i used to ask lily she sed sum ppl are jus insecure Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: dnt ask me i wudnt kno OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: everything seems pointless OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: gals ere are plain i love it Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i'd love it too OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: theres the odd clown but its not london Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: c no one appreciates that here Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i c people and wish they didnt put on the damn eyeliner.... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: and lip liner Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: and foundation Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: it's too much OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: dnt u do eye make up? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: occasionally Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: HOW DO U KNOW?! Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: it's only when i'm depressed Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: it's dark then Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: and others depending on my personal symbolic interpretation OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: ive learnt alot bout eye make up frm lily OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: hehe Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: yeh i kno... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i think she looks better without Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: but that's my opinion OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: yeah i tell her not to but lemme quote "it jus makes me look like im alive " Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: hmmm Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: it's up 2 her at the end of the day OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: hmmmm i think u wud get along with gals up ere OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: ive met sum nice ppl ere OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: grace, cristie, billy bob (boy), pheobe, marissa Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: hmm Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: u know sometimes i just wanna die OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: u musnt let life get the betta of u... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i usually hate people who say that Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: but i can't help it OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: do wot i do... eat chocolate OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: look bak on good memories Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i'm just constantly ... i don't know how 2 describe it OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: distant? OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: weary? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: angry with myself Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: with everything Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i just want it all to end Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i don't want to do all that shit... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: college uni... blah blah blah OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: u finding it difficult to settle in? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: it's everything Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i gotta go OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: kk Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: i'll talk to u soon Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: take care OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: take care OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: lol Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: OUCH LILY U BROKE MA HEART ... ...only way 2 make it up2 me is a kiss hehe says: l8as mate Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: cya
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Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: thanks .x[LaberynthOfDemise]x. says: not a problemo sweet cheeks..!! Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: .x[LaberynthOfDemise]x. says: tehe..!! .x[LaberynthOfDemise]x. says: biiiiiiiiiig hugggggggggg.... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: aw! Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: .x[LaberynthOfDemise]x. says: tehe.. that's soooo cuteage..! ^^ Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] my media class can go swallow knives... says: yesh he is .x[LaberynthOfDemise]x. says: tehehehehehe..!! October 04 homophobia something fwded 2 make u think....I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room. I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me. I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear. We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men. I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me. I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male. I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men. I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that. I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual. I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me. I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind. I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love. I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends im a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them. I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to "teach me a lesson" October 02 just another fecking friday (oh o-o-oh)wo0p wo0p aw man miss u SO much! i hate media at seven kings its sucking sooo badly at the moment yuk. i mean my teacher said the word bastard today and all the fuckers got excited....
yuk yuk ok i'm just being whiny... lol like mr hall ...
well what happened today? i signed up to find out more about volunteering .... i want to do something to help the elderly or the homeless
ahh wore my SOAD hoodie today ... i found it yesterday and i was so ecstatic that i decided to wear it lol lola and morenique kept putting there hand on top of the one on the back of my top...
naz : i luv meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee aw bless thats how it should be! ah i wish i was loved... i went out in the rain today but everyone at seven kings is sensible so i danced alone.... sad but true... hehe bit like my existence !! stuff i liked today
Anger is only one letter short of danger. He, who loses money, loses much; He, who loses a friend, loses much more; He,
THAT'S WHY THEY CALL IT THE PRESENT! (sorry that was a line i remebered but seems to have escaped from the email... please if you see it return it to the owner ... it's never nice to lose a pet!)
OHH YEH ! I WANT TO BUY A LITTLE DOG... yes i know meetal has one and call me a bredder or whatever but yeh .... and i want to call it FAECES!
LOL well what else has happened... chem tuituion on sat was ok.. i have a strange feeling my chem tuition techer is related to my head of chem ... well yeh lets just say i got a strange reaction when i was asked who she was... and i said .. oh this little asian lady who has issues with titrations!! lol
sun i did somthing cool... i've decided to do some formal volunteering as an english teacher 4 year 8s... well i'm not qualified but i'm glad to help! lol i'm actually planning a lesson !! should be kewl!
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aw! i feel special gtg byeeeeeeee 4 now! September 25 blurgh... i learnt THAT from jas!!an olllllllllllllllllllld blog... or a few lol Blog entry… written in MS Word
Well my space is refusing to open so I’m gonna resort to this… I say resort ‘cause I have no other damn option… argh! I’m so tired… I haven’t been sleeping properly and well I had to drink a can of red devil just to concentrate on dance this morning…
I’ve realised that the old sayings we all think are rubbish can be truer than you ever realise… like “the truth hurts” oh yes it bloody well does…
I’m so sick of this now… I just want to get on with my life… go to college, be busy … it’s too hard now… I tried with that job but mum didn’t want me going door to door… but that’s a lie… she just realised how much work I put into the house… without me she found out the hard way… and the thing is I really don’t understand why I have so much to do.. Til now... my brothers are such lazy pricks I end up having to bloody tidy up after them… and I really can’t believe some of the other stuff that’s going on in my life…
I’ve had my best friend stolen from me… lost my confidence and my happiness and well …. I’ve just been so fuckin stupid… I really hate myself for it… which is why I’m so eager to get to college… I don’t care about results anymore I just want a fresh start… this time I’ll do things right… I’ll think before I do or don’t do something… but now I’m just sitting around over thinking everything and no matter how many times I’m told I’ll always do it… I mean even now I wonder if i was caring enough or as attentive as I could be … maybe I was too selfish …
I am sick of this … bloody hell I’ve hurt myself bad… and I really am sick now… sick of it all … I’m just so sad… and if a single person calls me emo now u can go suck a lemon cause I’ve had enough of that shite…. Half of u fuckas don’t even know what ur on about so leave it out ok?
What the fuk am I on about no one even reads this… now Mez and MJ and komal are offline… and the people these rants are aimed at don’t know this blog exists… well some do…
I’m gonna go sleep for a while I just wish these thoughts would go away…
Was gonna phone jenny but u know what I’m really pathetic sometimes… I’m not sad or depressed or suicidal I’m just a hormonal attention seeker with too many things to think about... they aren’t exactly important but they are just things floating in my mind… there were few who always listened to my crap.. they aren’t here right now… one hates my guts and another has been stolen… there are also people who want to care and they can sometimes… then there are people who tell me how much they like me for who I am and yet in front of an audience publicly disown me…
Oh my days Top Of The Pops is on… last ever… there’s a memory, I used to like to watch and think about all the little things… like what the backing singers are doing or how there’s a magic moment sometimes when someone realizes “HEY I’M ON TV!”
Hello tis the 31st how are you all?
Well today’s not so bad… I phoned Rutty that was good – hehe singing along 2 The Proclaimers always is isn’t it!!
Raj’s screen name is “I need some fine wine and you need to be nicer” I like that! Tres symoblique… lol is that even French … I just put a “-ique” on the end lol … see that’s EXACTLY why I’m not taking French a-level… well I’m not anymore… I’m not actually sure… was talking to Edgar about it before he’s doing economics (insert sick smiley face here – lol!!)
Phoned Zireen in the morning told her I won’t be coming to work anymore… Ben says I’ll still get paid 4 the leads I got and he and Angelo think I can really go far in land consultancy!! Cool huh?! And there’s us thinking I’m totally useless DON’T WORRY! I still am … I’ve just learnt 2 hide it VERY well! Space is still refusing to work…
What else did I do today? Not a lot really eh?! Well I grated a coconut 4 my Nan… damn I’m getting good at it!! Hehe MJ n Mezzie – next time I make doshas I’ll make you some PROPER chutney… with FRESH coconut… hehe that’s the way!!
I phoned Harsha and Hasmita yesterday hehe was so funny… right I always panic when I call them cause I don’t know who to ask for so I usually ask if either of the girls are in… BUT yesterday I phoned and for the first time I thought hmm I’ll ask for ONE of the girls… (I know it’s sad but believe me tis a big deal 2 me) so I think I’ll ask for Harsha …. And guess what?! HARSHA PICKS UP THE PHONE … hehe she’s so great she even knew I did a little boogie in the kitchen when I actually got something right!!
I’m supposed to go down to Romford Rd later to give Ben the presenters that Ameet and I took home… I’m not sure if Mistry is actually going back… he’s on holiday in Spain at the moment… ah I’ll give his one in too – he can get it when he goes back!
Hmm lets see exactly how much I learnt at Cisco.. (wow it’s strange how MS Word seems to know how to spell Cisco…) Ooh I wanna go to Siobhan n Sibyl’s party lol I have this BRILL plan 4 a costume… *air drum roll* “Shaz the Spinster” *like the dog from the film Oliver and Company says* “check-it-ouwwwt” hehe cool shit or what?! Ooh guess what I’m getting my mum for her birthday!! A HANDBAG!! Well I know she really wants one!! I’ll get it from Ilford 2mra… Ooh Raj’s screen name twas in fact a song by The Cardigans! I Need Some Fine Wine And You Need To Be Nicer http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jlHNh1Oj7TU ooh but I like this one much morey! My Favourite Game http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kOffbcuKEb4 best bit…? G-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-MMEEEEEEEEEEEE Is it just me or does anyone else think KT Tunstall is reeeaaallly pretty? Well I do so… Ooh was doing some research!! Well watching TOTP… I – in actual fact – am not a child of any 1 decade!! Lol I like the 60s 70s and 80s!! lol and the 90s and the 00s I guess!! Lol Marilyn Manson was on!! “Your own… Personal Jesus” he’s some funky-shit! Currently listening to Boy’s Don’t Cry – The Cure… I think Lost Prophet’s covered that… Ooh there’s another cover sumwhere… wait! ……………………… Ooh sod that!! Look at this!! Ok pretty hot emo gal but tooo funny! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JMvMzQ4Vu-8 (oh emo girl I wish I cud be u…) Old personal message : Shaz's word of the week : Chicken shit! || stoopid space isn't working Bored now… shall blog more later… hmm wondering what colour next Blog should be… hmm a cold colour… or fresh? GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEN yehyeah!! Lol I’ve been saying that so much … ah I’ll miss the guys at work … lol. Toodle pop! Hello! I’m back!! Lol like 10 mins later HAD TO ADD THIS!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kwmVixeY7p0 She thinks Jool’s Holland rocks! Best bit – Bang-ba-ba-bang go! *** HUBBA HUBBA!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2cWRMft2WG4 *drools* *** http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rrbSv6OY_iY J I saw this show!! Hehe *** http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qgMiVjqmuTM oasis – come on feel the noise *** http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pLxHfrL8wHI oasis – don’t look back in anger *** http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OWzp9RvwByQ killers- mr brightside *** http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHg66Iu5OOs arctic monkeys – when the sun goes down *** now it's purple... went to office 2 drop off presenters... lol shinnah is tooo funny him n amdad were having a "grown up" discussion about relationships and Shinnah turns 2 me and says "Shaz, what do YOU think of sex after marriage?!" me : Shinnah ... honey ... I THINK it's sex BEFORE marriage... ....... oh well.... sex is sex... "meh" lol only time that word's made sense to me hehehe "My baloney has a first name its H-O-M-E-R My baloney has a second name its H-O-M-E-R"
3 Doors Down : heard of hey heyhi there shaz here well who else would it be! i'm just wondering if anyone actually bothers to read this thing anymore.... i don't think so... today was cool ... well cold and wet to be precise some good stuff's happened...
toodle pop.... poodle pop toodle poodle noodle poodle noodle pop errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr yeh "mwah"s, cuddles and much stroking Shaz xx September 24 woooooI'm back! Back in black! yehyeahyeahyeah! yeahyehyeahyeah!
sorry i like that song!
i've given up with that damn slide show!
i've just had a thought well a train of thought
i make coffee for myself
> find some ring shaped donuts in the cupboard
> laugh at the cliche image of chief wiggum offices in america
> then feel a bit guilty cuz i'm sure there are a few cute ones...
> then i laugh to myself about how male strippers dress up like police officers... thats a bit random to me
> then i thinki'm sure there are people who look good in a police uniform....
> and now i've decided James would look mighty fine as a copper... and he's tall so it makes sense right and then i get on to other people
> mital would make a cute midwife
> owen would make a hot fireman hee hee
hmmmm i shall think up some more.. right now my favs are the fireman and the nurse / midwife... and i mean it i can see Mital in the blue / green outfits... not the tacky white ones... i can even see her in a proper nurses uniform!! ahh and James in his dark hues and blue tones ... hehe and Owen in his firemans uniform lol ok shaz u tard shut up... ew... i'm gonna freak them lot out tomorrow!! hehe
hmmm these trains of thought are so random!
hee hee:
"When it's three o'clock in New York, it's still 1938 in London" (Bette Midler) says: i'm tribal homo "When it's three o'clock in New York, it's still 1938 in London" (Bette Midler) says: ur tribal emo oh yeh i tottally forgot this song my n raj made up.. well changed and stole...
*to the tune of Madonna's 'Like A Virgin'*
"Like an emo... cut for the very first time.... like an e-e-e-e-emo"
what else..... hmmmm
Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: would u like 2 join the yeh yeah tribe ?You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: maybe... You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: does it involve eating bugs? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: no but having strange or perverse outlooks on life and politics Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: u in? You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: yep shame bout the bugs... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: u still can Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: it'd count You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: lol Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: there r bugs in smarties... You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: except the blue ones... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: ahhh You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: that's why i like orange best! Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: i like blue! Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: shame about the bugs... You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: that may be a new catchphrse of moi's Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: ahh Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: well thats the next step Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: hold on Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: i'm gonna do somthing Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: hold on to that thought You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: my daddy is a grunger my mum's a goth-no lie! my brother is a little geek so what the hell am i? You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: erm i'm gonna get lunch cya in like ten mins Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: oo okies Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: bye-d-bye! You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: back with pitta, toast and pasta-soup thing! Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: yum! You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: have u ever tried reversing out of a small study with a laptop(not completely closed cos you don't want it to go on standby) with papers on top in your left arm, and half a pitta bread in one hand? You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: it aint easy Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: thats a song innit Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: it aint easssy Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: i dunno where its from or hu it's by You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: me neither but yknow Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: ooh i think it's david bowie... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: hmm Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: i'll check You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: k Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOxsNRx3Vec Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: thats the song Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: i love it Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: it's too good You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: c what ya mean You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. sends:
You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: have a listen... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: oooh You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: hope it doesn't take aaaaggggggess cos its really not worth it... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: anything 4om u is!! You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: that makes me feel so warm in my hollow tin chest... You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: lol You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: ok not too ages-ness You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: now... LISTEN! heeeeeererrreeesss Gracie! would b better without crappy mic and hint of froggy sore throat I know... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says:
You have successfully received D:\Documents and Settings\Owner\My Documents\My Received Files\crazycoverclip.mp3 from You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood..You should go there, yes you should, bimboland...........otherwise known as hollywood. says: huhsplats? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: gooshlop oh yeh nose is still blocked... partially
i need to go n get my bag 2mra ... £20 ... it better friggin last ... i'll check in millets as well i saw the funky print that sophie showed me - she has the sleeping bag, AND IT'S REVERSIBLE... see i can remember that but can't grasp emperical formulas... why? W H Y ?!
ok i've JUST started to use the micro phone and MSN decides to die
lol mic is fuuuun specially with gracie!
wo0p gracie poems
In bimboland there's not a care The schools study 'How to have perfect hair' They're always dressed in this second's trends And oh yeah- you get hanged if you have split ends There's sometimes major political disputes "I'm more cute" "No I'm more cute" "Hard hitting news just in! Someone's got a bit of dry skin!" Eugh! When your brain is turned to mush You can live in a world so lush Come to bimboland with me The real-free reality The real-free reality In bimboland they pout for sport They mince around in sparkly shorts Their eyes are blue and their lips are pink And remember- It's illegal to think! (bimbo voice): Bimboland, we're pretty nice, It's every idiot's paradise Bimboland, we're bitchy-nice, We don't know the meaning of paradise (normal voice): Sluts tarts hoes whores No-one want's you anymore! Sometimes the government fails And three people break their nails "Hard hitting news just in Shes size 000, She used to be thin! Gross! When your brain is turned to mush You can live in a world so lush Come to bimboland with me The real-free reality The real-free reality Real real real real fake fake fake fake (bimbo voice): Bimboland, we're pretty nice, It's every idiot's paradise Bimboland, we're bitchy-nice, We don't know the meaning of paradise (normal voice): Sluts tarts hoes whores No-one want's you anymore! When your brain is turned to mush You can live in a world so lush Come to bimboland with me The real-free reality The real-free reality When your brain is turned to mush You can live in a world so lush You should visit, yes you should, The dumbness tastes so good The dumbness tastes so good Bimboland:- otherwise known As hollywood.
There's are endless things to see with you But still I cannot be with you We can walk across the earth, to the ends But still we would be 'just friends' I can smile and talk and sing with you But can't have love or a fling with you Easily my mind with yours blends But we continue as 'just friends' Although the rumours spread The spark between us isn't alive or dead It died before birth No romance here to shake the earth There's endless things to do with you, But there is no 'love forever true' with you, So many emails that each of us sends But we’re left sitting here as ‘just friends’ Although the rumours spread The spark between us isn't alive or dead It just isn't real No magic in the way we don't feel Although the rumours spread The spark between us isn't alive or dead It never did exist Except for that one time we almost accedentally kissed...
** I saw a shadow, a shadow of us, Kissing on the top floor of a double decker bus, I saw a flicker of you and me Smiling, embracing, forever happy.
***
He’s at the mercy, He’s at the mercy, At the mercy of a girl of a girl Her hands pull the strings of his hands on the rope around his neck that he pulls in a rush in a dream where shes there and she stares and he wakes in a sweat and all he can think about is her. He wants to tell himself he hates her, He tells everyone that he hates her, He trys to tell himself he hates her- But he’s not listeni ngShe’s the puppeteer, In his dreams and in his nightmares, She makes him wanna die but he only stays alive cos of her, How can he tell her? What will she say? Boy she already knows, And she likes you anyway! She’s trying to control , She’s trying to control, Trying to control the boy yeh the boy, His face on her mind so she tries to project all the feelings she wants him to finally accept shes not bad but shes sad and she stays up all night and all she can think about is him. She knows deep in her heart he loves her, She sees it in his eyes he loves her Has he told his friends he loves her? And why wo n't he confessShe’s the puppeteer, In his dreams and in his nightmares, She makes him wanna die but he only stays alive cos of her, How will he tell her? Just knock at her door? Boy however much you want her, She wants you even more! They’re thinking about each other, each other ‘Was this destined from before we were born?’ ‘I’m a Taurus, so is he a Capricorn?’ ‘I think she quite likes me, but I have no proof…’ ‘C’mon, C’mon just TELL ME THE TRUTH!!!’ She’s the puppeteer, In his dreams and in his nightmares, She makes him wanna die but he only stays alive cos of her, Will they ever confess? Will they stay in this hell? Only t ime will tellYour trenchcoat's long, your lipstick's black, so they think you got beelzebub on your back... says: I LOVE IT! AND I LOVE TO BE EGOTISTICAL! Look what she does to him When he's banging on the door and she won't let him in Well it's only because the knocking is silent Look how she tortures him When he's waiting for her call and the phone doesn't ring Well its only because she doesn't know his number Look how she's hurting him When he wraps his arms around her and she kicks him in the shin Well that's a lie, he's to shy to do that Being silent can hurt someone When they're just waiting for you to say the words they wanna hear She says nothing to him Cos she says nothing to her So close, so near. wo0phello
i have a cold
it sucks
i also know nothing about power point and therefore Ms Wayman will probably kill me with a ribosome or something!! lol
ow! my head hurts!
Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: i have a cooooold! OMG AYESHA IN DA NEWHAM MAG AGAIN!! WOO CHUNGTINGZ says:OWEN WIL MAKE U FEEL BETA! OMG AYESHA IN DA NEWHAM MAG AGAIN!! WOO CHUNGTINGZ says: Lol Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: yes yes he will Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: i've already been promised 4 monday!! OMG AYESHA IN DA NEWHAM MAG AGAIN!! WOO CHUNGTINGZ says: Woo! OMG AYESHA IN DA NEWHAM MAG AGAIN!! WOO CHUNGTINGZ says: Ask him out already OMG AYESHA IN DA NEWHAM MAG AGAIN!! WOO CHUNGTINGZ says: ! Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: no he has a girl OMG AYESHA IN DA NEWHAM MAG AGAIN!! WOO CHUNGTINGZ says: Fuk off! Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: yep OMG AYESHA IN DA NEWHAM MAG AGAIN!! WOO CHUNGTINGZ says: Nah OMG AYESHA IN DA NEWHAM MAG AGAIN!! WOO CHUNGTINGZ says: Ow man! Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: i can still hug him! OMG AYESHA IN DA NEWHAM MAG AGAIN!! WOO CHUNGTINGZ says: Yh but... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: but? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: ??? EXCUSE DA GRUMPYNESS IM SLEEPY says: But it aint da same! Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: oh well Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: i can hug him EXCUSE DA GRUMPYNESS IM SLEEPY says: Oh well Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: ? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: whatsamatta? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: ?? Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: why u crying? EXCUSE DA GRUMPYNESS IM SLEEPY says: Im cryn 4 u Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: ohh Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: i'm not crying!
mirupafshim ... reni said it.... what does it meaaaaaaan?!
probably bye or sutin
wellllllllllll OOH TOO BRIGHT!
aw man i'm losing my blogging touch! hmm lets start this again!!
i have a cold .. ok i've already said that ....
didnt go primark .... mum was being a pain...
hmmm ok i need a stimuli... ok i've just dropped my phone so lets check out my messages.! james texted aw he has a chest infectiong the poor bebe... i texted to find out how he's doing... he said the cough is still the same claire texted we shud go out together more! well we all went to the cheescake shop on fri! well not everyone owen's last text that i can find says
aw i feel so special... and i feel like i don't appreciate my new friends enough...
ow my head is killing... i need a hug!
i have 3 main huggers - i'll get some pics up soon!!
stuart - a good strong hug... lol he goes "your breasts are crushing my lungs" sorry stu..! owen - my fav hugger, long hugs and strokey hugs - i want an owen hug now!! james - empathetic hugs... always there when u need him .. he's brill and he's also my sex slave!! lol!!
other huggers, claire she's always nice n warm, kezia we're at a height where our boobs fit together like a jigsaw... she has nice hugs! ok i need some pills i'm going to go n get some bye for now.... and i promise the next blog WILL be better love, cuddles and dirty dreams Shaz xx September 12 well hello theretoday.
not too great.
well
i've been "whining" too much... and well i guess i have but u know what i'm not even sure anymore... u see... i KNOW i HAVE been BITCHY about SOME people at SEVEN KINGS. but hey i made some really nice friends today like areeba and kate (hehe my chem and bio study buddies!! lol yeh i think if u wanna know more about that i suggest u ask my slightly psychotic chem / bio teacher Ms.... w.... something lol i'm so useless!)
so ok good point and bad points lets see what balances out..
good stuff :
bad stuff
saw kalraj on the way home
aw thanks jas... this helped.. BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: u didnt let me finish Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: ? BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: ur not winey.. ur opinionated Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: aw thanks
this helped.. a lot... thanks again ...
aw i've started a club.... the yeh-yeah tibe.... theres me : the mother of the "yeh yeah" (the father was faheem BUT SHHHH he don't know lol!!) jen : sister of the "yeeeah" tish : the sister of yep komal : the sister of "damn straight" i think i'll ask karen to join in too.... lemme ask... .... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: aw yeh i've started a club.... the yeh-yeah tibe.... would u like to join?! †–––•(-•Kå®ën•-)•–––†[x]♥I Just Cant Shake It From My Head And All The Things U Said They Only Break My Heart♥[x] says: yeaH that would be"YEAH" Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: hmm Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: whats ur fav phrase 2 say?? †–––•(-•Kå®ën•-)•–––†[x]♥I Just Cant Shake It From My Head And All The Things U Said They Only Break My Heart♥[x] says: erm Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: hmm †–––•(-•Kå®ën•-)•–––†[x]♥I Just Cant Shake It From My Head And All The Things U Said They Only Break My Heart♥[x] says: "likeyeah" Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: ooh †–––•(-•Kå®ën•-)•–––†[x]♥I Just Cant Shake It From My Head And All The Things U Said They Only Break My Heart♥[x] says: i say that a lot when i what im talkin about... Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: cool Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: ok i declare u ... THE SISTER OF "LIKE.... YEAH" Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: Shaz A Knee [ thy vacant brow and tousled hair conceal thy good intent ] says: brilliant
helloooooo! i am back from college again! well today was much better i've made some very nice friends AND I ONLY FORGOT ONE NAME!! well there's ok i forgot like one name but yeah... that many name's is good enough for MY mental capacity.... tommorrow i'm going to lunch with jakia... it shud be greeeeeeeet i love jakia she's just fab lol owen's sandwich began digesting itself... that was so random... but still such a brill way to describe it!
wow james is REALLY strong...
well baisically he was behind me and i turned and went "argh! i can't look! ur hair is too nice!" so i turn back again and well... he turned me around.. but damn the boy is REALLY strong! in a very cool yet freaky way .. i dunno why but u wouldn't really think so... but mj said he's not very nice... baisically he laughs at people in medis with his friend clare... they seem nice so i'm not gonna think anything too soon besides no one but the year 13's and year 9's are being mean!! ok i want some juice.... bye bye xx September 10 ouch... that hurt my soul...BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: saalene BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: why do we like the photograph BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: (this is like the good old times.. u doing my media work.. haha) Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: because... it's a portait of the harsh reality of life... Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: yes jas... yes
hey people....
well let me fill u in...
SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: OMG I NEVER HAD A CHEESECAKE! Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: lol Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: i'll make u 1 Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: i'm having an indoor picnic on the 7th next month Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: wanna come? SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: lol SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: huz cummin Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: well me komal jen ... so far SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: lol...will i hav to wear ma sexy lingerie? SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: lol Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: lol SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: wow..big turn out man..LOL.. Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: lol Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: tis small man!! Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: i have a small house!! SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: lol SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: yeh i remba SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: i luv ur bathroom SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: lol SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: now u noe wen i cum over for a sleepovver....wer to put me..lol.. Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: looool Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: in the bath? Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: yeh when ur legless!! SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: yup SoldieRess of ALLAH - On CHADICINE! - Hoes On Bros...Let me Establish it wiv ya "luvy" says: lol
so my dear salma is in love with my bath.... lol i still love her though... hmm a threesome mabye? salma me and the bath... sounds good!!
erm i can play stand by me and lean on me... WHY IS IT ALL ABOUT U SHAZ? well bob... there is no one else... YES THERE IS... yeh but i'm a cow so poo u bob ... FUCK U SHAZ... *shaz cries..* ... shame shaz... shame....
BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: Personally I like the photograph, because it portrays the reality of life; that everyone is not equal. BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: yes i was BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: so pffttt Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: :O BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: printing Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: lol Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: had 2 go komals 2 do my media work.. Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: which was like 5 lines about finding nemo... Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: lol BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: i did homework on kill bill BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: i kicked ass on that essay BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: and omg.. my nspcc advert review Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: lol BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: kick ass or what Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: erm if u say so !! BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: i do BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: haha.. that alistair dude wont know what hit him Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: hahaha Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: well done jas! Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: all hail jas! Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: *weeps* we are not worthyyyyy! BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: unless he says "and wtf is this?" and bins it Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: lol Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: tru... Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: and our dreams of superstar jas are all ruined... Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: DON'T DISAPPOINT ME! Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: I'VE WORKED TOO HARD! BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: neway BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: im gone BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: saalene BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: lol BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: lol BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: haha BUZZ, I AM YOUR FATHER says: byeeee Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: byee
you know i had some really good day dreams today... a video for In the morning .. (lol raj's version was too good!!) yeah but i can't remeber it now... currently listening to ... BYOB... yes i am Mrs malakian... hehe but i'm cheating on him with john... shhh he doesn't need to know!!
ok i just got told off... i feel a little stoopid now... wow that was a jolt... hmmm
Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: no i was gonna say i day dream a lot.. lol i think i'm the only person who actually does!! "When it's three o'clock in New York, it's still 1938 in London" (Bette Midler) says: i daydream i think evey1 does Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: yeh but ppl say i do it too much ... and i swear too much too... and i've been told i say sorry too much "When it's three o'clock in New York, it's still 1938 in London" (Bette Midler) says: ur so negative i think ppl see that when they first meet u like ur negativitythey might not see the good in u "When it's three o'clock in New York, it's still 1938 in London" (Bette Midler) says: ......soz Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: lol Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: i see.. Shaz A Knee [ Cheescake shop!! ] says: i'm just scared... bout college and stuff.. i really don't fit in and it's a bit weird.. i'm so used to school and being comfy... "When it's three o'clock in New York, it's still 1938 in London" (Bette Midler) says: lol u fit in its not like u were an act for the travellingh freak show u a good person i think u need to adjust "When it's three o'clock in New York, it's still 1938 in London" (Bette Midler) says: * u are "When it's three o'clock in New York, it's still 1938 in London" (Bette Midler) says: soz if i sound bitchy i'm just really upfornt and say what i think. i just tell it str8
hmm more jolts... wow i'm hurting... i'm gonna go to my room and sleep for a while... hopefully i'll be ok later... bye whoever's reading this... x September 07 a blog from the past.... and today lolhey! for some reason my router is having a bitch fit so i'm resorting to this... Word Pad... as opposed to? writitng in my blog? or my diary? or actually picking up the phone and calling Jen or Komal? .dot.dot.dot. (i'll let u figure THAT one out for youselves!) currently listening to 04 - Disappearing Boy by Green Day well yesterday was my birthday ... i was woken up at 5 ( no fair cause i was having this random dream where i was on a train and then my mum caomes in a shakes me awake...) "Why were you up so early?" i hear you ask... and i also hear someone at the back of the room mutter "Stupid bitch is probably over excited about her lame birthday" (this is a post usually taken by Jas ) well my dad was going india so yeah we were all up early to say good bye to him.. my uncle said he'd drop him off and he took my brothers too... mother and i then went back to bed.... and i woke up at 9, which meant i was late and i had to rush.. but me being me i'm useless at that BUT... i WAS ready ... but there was traffic so our "ride" was bit late... ( ABOUT HALF AN HOUR *COUGH COUGH*) i stood outside and watched the cars go by ... wondered why we couldn't take mum's car... and then remembered "There's no fucking way i'm gonna drive in a sari..." listening to : false advertising by bright eyes.... hmmmm it's a grower! ha! i downloaded that california soul song from the KFC ad!! lol yeah so we're in the car SOMEONE has their music BLARING .... rhghghghrhrhrgrhegehrgrhrgrhrrrrrrrrrrrrr (queue the angry face...) THERE HE IS! ( erm shouldn't that be a she? ok NOW queue the confused face.... YEH-YEAH!) so we're in the changing rooms and i'm mid sari and my phone starts ringing - i automatically think it's dad ringing form the airport to say his flight's been delayed or something.... and guess who it is?! MO FROM CISCO! weird huh... it's been what a year and something since i've spoken to him! but my oh my the wait is worth it.... HE HAS SUCH A SEXY VOICE! it's so funny ... i was like mid-sari (with usha aunty in front of me pleating away - i had LOADS of pleats cause i didn't cut the sari blouse part off the actual sari... my bad but i wasn't actually tooo confident in which bit to cut or anything so i left it... BACK TO THE STORY DAMMIT!) yeah so everyone KNOWS there's some random guy on the phone... and is like *MALAYALEE LOOK* and i'm just like "I'm sooo sorry but i have to go... i'm a leetle busy.." and then i'm giggling my bloody head off... myms like "calm down" and everyone else is like... "ok whatever..." but tis these little coinkidinks that make me happy and happiness cannot be over shadowed by other's .. for that is the brilliance of true happiness.. AND THEN! pras calls me ... i'm like "where are you? i need to talk to you!" (mainly 'cause i'm fuckin bored shitless with them lot...) oh and i was called a DISGRACE cause i didn't want a BIG FAKE OOH-LOOK-WHAT-I-CAN-DO-WITH-LIQID-EYELINER Om symbol on my back... well HOLD ON rohoney didn't want one either.. BUT I GET CALLED A DISGRACE... well you can all fuck off.. i'm sorry if you think you're "gangsta" or have been self proclaiming yourself as a "top boy / girl" then fuck off.... you stupid little children.. i have NO PROBLEM if you wanna do your own thing.. that's fine with me! i don't care... but when you feel you're SO insecure you have to project your fucking beliefs on to me? then you can go play in traffic... prefereably on the M4 or somehting (hehe) look at me... i have two..... she has two whats?! ok i left u mid blog there oh and there's this random bit...: actually i guess i wonder if i have a bit of a dirty mind... but it may just be when it's compared to malayalee kids minds... lol
hello again i just got back from seven kings which sucks balls i really don't like it... i don't fit in... and it's just plain crap... i mean first off they're SO friggin unorganised... (THAT'S MY JOB!) we got no time tables, no ID cards, no electronic lunch keys.... tomorrow is our first proper day and i am dreading it... i really am so left out... i feel like the friend i have are floating away except fati bless her but yeh i guess i can't cling to them can i? GUESS WHAT?! i go into my new form today (12.5 0 coinkidink - just don't hope i screw up here and all!!) and this dude PETER has red streaks in his hair .. i was like DUUUUUUDE i'm getting that done today!! [yeh jen should be over later so all is well... though i am feeling a little chicken... well my hair's curly and shit innit so random pieces may well look weird... btw my mum's voted for stripes ... i may just go as i planned for... a big chunk underneath - should be cool... and maybe some streaks if we feel like it...] BTW ROUTER IS STILL BEING A BITCH... or maybe that's my title cause i'm not really bothered to get up and check,,, OH i could have gone and seen joyce today! ... aw maybe not... the wounds are still fresh *sob sob* WHY THE HELL DO I KEEP CHANGING MY MIND? i remeber a while back saying i never wanna be back at little ilford.... but i do now... like mj says : "It's funny... right now i wanna be around all the people i hate!" so true mj.... so true... ok so today i get up at six, leave nannies at quarter to 7 (we celebrated Onam there... twas good i love my grandparents... lol forget having kids i wanna skip straight to my granny phase lol!) got on the 25 - saw mr kahn the RE teacher (random!) got home get a call from neelu leave house... AND I FORGET a) Dad's cheque b) my passport sized photo c) my lip balm but don't worry! i'm gonna go cash the cheque... erm now!! take the photo in 2mra ... and i borrowed some lip balm from nilo as i KNEW i'd be biting my lips a lot today... well i did that and other stuff that i've become VER concious of... like touching my face or covering my mouth or moving my hair back ... i'll ask peter he's into psychology he'll know! and i had to do this learn-about-your-partner thing ME: well this is sammy... sammy is tall...sammy has nice eyes (he does!).. sammy has been run over 3 times (which is like totally cool, but i have yet to succeed in that ambition!) and a lie?.... sammy is related to amitar bachaan (however u spell that lol) SAMMY: well this is shaz... she swears a lot...she can knit... she got a guitar on sunday ... but can't play it...and a lie?.... shaz is brill at ICT.. to which i add... yeah i didn't even get entered into the exam! hahaha i'm really quite proud of that... u know i didn't even give my work in... i borrowed the front page of madiha's and said it was mine... ms patel (aka stupid bitch) was like is that all ur giving in? me: *smiles* yep! u know i think i should tell sammy i can't spell either but tis a bit late now... *pirate voice* arrrrrrgh okies me going bank now... barclays in east ham 2 be precise!! lol in a bizzle! Shazza x
hey today was first day of college...
DID NOTHING.... out of 6 periods i have on tues and thurs... I HAD 5 FREE PERIODS ... and media 4th lesson... which was lame ... cause everyone in my class in lame... 2mra? i have CHEM **** (FREE PERIOD) STATS MEDIA **** (FREE PERIOD) **** (FREE PERIOD) so i guess i can go home early again like today...
ack ... thank goodness i've found a chem/bio buddy! her name is ariba (i THINK i spelt that right!) and btw raj... i've got tope secret info here... OWEN IS A BITCH... yes raj a cute bitch i hear ya! lol
u know twas so freaky i got out of media was going to the common room (lol sounds like harry potter right?!) AND i swear i heard someone JUST LIKE NIKUL!! twas so scary! got some minor media h/w... i'm doing my film analysis on finding nemo!!! yehyeah! oh yeh mez was telling how i reeaaaaaaaallllly overuse that phrase now... wow i'm sad! lol ok i'm gonna go sleep ... well grab a coffee and then sleep ... hehe tooo tired... just been talking all day.... media was DRYYYYYYYYYYYY ( lol komal aren't u proud?!)
ok gtg
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee August 31 too good to miss....
yeh-yeahhi there reader... probably me looking back on this in a few
days / months / years... whatever...
well i had my hair curly yesterday cause i'm feeling happy... and i haven't been for ages... it's a personal symbolism thing... hehe i wonder... is it just me that seems to ALWAYS seek a symbolic meaning behind everything in life? is it a bad habit or just a queer addiction? who knows?!
man alive, i'm hungry !
hmm there's nothing "nice" to have for breakfast...
i want toast ... but there isn't any OJ .. i NEED my OJ !!
hmmm there's fruit n fibre... which oddly came up in a telephone convo with Harsha ...
there's ready brek ... yeh might have that...
yeh ... ready brek... WITH HONEY ... yum...
hmmm watched some Friends this morning ... hehe tis gud
ooh mail! (as in the electronic type!!) 2 Ok Go vids from Harsha and Hasmita
Jen and i went to green street yesterday... we're so silly! FIRST we totally missed Plashet Grove and walked up to East Ham station (d'oh!) SECOND we (WELL I !!) totally missed the shop we were intending to go in BY TWO BLOCKS! (double d'oh!)
we got the bloody pearl bangles for dance...
(PINKY AND THE BRAIN IS ON !!)
we then decided to get me them SHINY SHOES! but not the blue ones... the black ... and some random ballet pumps!! hehe the have RIBBONS!
and i brought 2 tops a TURQUOISE ONE .. *flashback*
KAVITA : TERTIARY COLOURS!! (ok before i get ear-crapped by some smart arse... THESE ARE JUST A SAMPLE OF TERTIARY COLOURS that relate to the instance i am remebering not whatever you did in GCSE art last year ok? .....and i KNOW i've probably spelt it completely wrong!)
hmm i have no ide what else to write about... OH YEAH my bad sorry ... i have to pause for thought every now and then...
lol The Brain does a BRILLIANT impression of an indian dad... "YES! you ARE a lab rat ... I've been one all my life... what's wrong with it?"
ok so i also brought this very nice vest top t'has lace erm... at the top... basically the straps are made of lace.. (BLOODY HELL I TOTALLY FORGOT THE WORD STRAP... I'M SO THICK... I KEEP DOING THAT AND IT'S GETTING RIDICULOUS!)
aw fuck i thought i could look at jen's blog to remind me of anything i'd forgotten... probably a lot so...
ok bullet point time!
mithu: are you wearing contacts? me : huh? NO! haha reminds me of when i was on my way back from my Oaks Park interview and this little old lady at the bus stop asks me "where did you get your hair permed" "erm.. it's natural....?" I AM NOT A FAKE PEOPLE... I'M JUST A BIT WEIRD.... hehehe
RIGHTY it's 9.21 am ... I'M OFF FOR A SHOWER.... bye. August 30 pop!hiyahhhhh dunno wyhy i chose to spell it liek that!!
something jenny sent me : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PqtYPMMlNs
tis funky!!
not feeling well AT ALL... seriously ask jen i couldn't move at one point ( i hate periods.. they suck balls ) and i even took my trusty paracetamol and he didn't help .. mind u he kicked in a LOT later...
blink is being played on tv... wow i really shud listen to my beloved blink some more!!
and system of a down! aaaaaaaaaaahhh hawt... tis what i see when i wake in the morning... SYSTEM OF A DOWN.... unless i'm sleeping upside down! (HEY it happens!!) THEN it's johnny depp.... or if i'm facing the wall i see the Chillis *drools* hmm john... hmmm and isn't it weird how i have 2 johns both VERY sexy ... i love my johns...
 ok i'm gonna get in the bath or jen may well see me in a towel AGAIN... hehe ...
Jen : "Aw you look SO cute!" yes... i worry about her too!!
HMMM CURLY HAIR TODAY ... BYE BYE! August 28 in addition to almost everything i ever write on this damn thing...hello after i finished that last blog i realised just how forgetful i really am... and i dunno why but when i sit here to write this down i think .... nothing.. my mind goes blank... but when i'm sitting on my ass... or on the bus... or watching tv... i think of something mildly amusing... and i would therefore apologise.... cause i doubt any of you will actually get to hear it.... or read for that matter... (well duh! tis a blog, no?)
hmmmmmm i dunno bout u but i'm tottally lost
hehe
stuff today...
gonna go out with Komal and Jen - cause i have to buy pearl bangles... got a dance performance on the 3rd... yes.. my birthday...
which leads me to (yeah i'm gonna try doing this thing as a train of thought maybe that way we'll get the most out of me..!) i dunno what i'm doing for my birthday... well i don't know what to say when i'm asked... i just go blank.. (yes tis a regular occurance for someone as stupid as i) i really don't know... i just can't be ... bothered... i'm really just not in any mood to "paaaaartay!" but i wouldn't mind just a little erm *winces at using this phrase* "get together" ( i really don't like saying that and i really don't know why!!)
we might just go out to some random resteraunt and have a giggle ... but i'm just not seeing it at the moment.. i may ask MJ to help me out here... she's usually the only one in the group with the patience to deal with me...
which leads me to...??? erm... errr...
ok sod that...
I FINISHED MY SCARF!!
YAYNESS!! well it's taken me 3 days but thats quite good a mon avis
lol french... yehyeah
i think i've changed my options ... from
english lit / french (only as AS) / sociology / media
TO.......
chem / bio / maths / media (only as AS)
but i think i'll have to talk to erm... the guy who did my interview erm mr... hayes? i dunno i'll find out...
erm did i tell you mr blog what i got for my results?
english - A
english lit. - B
maths - A
science - Double A
history - B
media - A
french - A
cool huh? i am erm ... how can i say this... blah! well it's nothing too brilliant.. i mean GCSE's are just another hurdle set by the government and society to see how we the students will .. i want to use the word fare but i fear it is wrong so erm yeah... mAybe someone will come out with "THIS IS WHY GCSEs WERE CREATED SO STUPID PEOPLE LIKE SHAZ MAY HAVE AN OPINION BUT IT'LL NEVER MEAN A THING NEVER!!!!!"
OK JENNY PENNY IS HERE... i'm off people!!
oh yeh check this out ... this is my other passion .. brilliant convos... unfortunately they are quite rare... and thats a sad thing... but enjoy it when they happen!!
Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation.
Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: hello .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: oh heylooo dudie.. me no knew yeee was online..!!! Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: just saw ur lil box pop up!! .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: oh me seees.. me haths been onlinage for like 10mins.. .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: sent bruv bruv to go get me credit.. Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: i seeeees Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: brother's are brilliant slaves! Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: totally..!! Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: just checking out that vid Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: YMCA! Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: heehee .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: lmfao..!! yahuh..!! i have very strange friends.. Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: hilarious .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: well i know the two guys.. the girl i have never met before.. Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: ooh ok Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: they're funny... and a little random Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: tis what u want in a friend ... no? .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: looolz.. of course..!! Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: argh.. what be yeee upie tooos today..?? Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: i must go to the street which is green and buy adornments of pearl Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: ooooooooooh.. .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: of the la lah kind.. .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: sounds very interesting indeed.. Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: if only it was! Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: have a dance programme ON MY BIRTHDAY.. not that any of those twirps even realise... Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: AWW.. BUBIE.. ...!!! .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: when is yeer birthimaday..?? Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: the 3rd of september .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: ooooooh.. again.. of the la lah kind... .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: be yeeee excited..?? Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: not muchly Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: she seems to care not for this years passing ... .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: we one doesn't usually like to be reminded that another year has gone down the drain.. but i'm sure that in time.. (being of the few day variety) she shall come to realise that the excitment twas there all along.. festering under the "non-caring" fasade..?? Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: maybe tis all a fasade but i must find true meaning for such a day each year before i may taste the sweetness of the joy it may bring .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: fair enoughicles..!! Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: i love our convos.. .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: tehe.. me tooo.. they are always sooo.. hmm.. what is the word i am looking for..?? .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: interesting doesn't sum it up.. Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: true... Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: hmm .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: so i guess.. wondermatastical.. Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: yes. that's it! Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: tehehe.. ish just coz we iz so fantabiedoobie innit blud..!! Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: yeah mayn innit getmelike.... .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: not really.. but im gonna lyricalize a fo shizzle anywayz.. Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: yeah yeah! Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: .x[Bulimic Headcase]x. says: tehe.. oooh.. brb the phone is rinigng.. Shaz [ "its just u and ur hand tonight".] says: okies August 26 well hello there...hey
tis the 26th ...
on the 24th we all got our results ... everyone has done really well...
i got the grades to go to seven kings... and i'm just still... not taking it in... i went out today to buy some stationary today ... trying to accept things i guess... and it's still not sinking in... i don't know why... i wasn't jumping up and down when i got my results... i felt like i was in a bubble... i had no one to celebrate with... and that hurt... it was like everyone had their people and i didn't have anyone there...
 i didn't even want to go out to central london with the girls... so i went home and just did nothing... jen and pras came over... and we watched the Corpse Bride...
*key quote* johnny depp to his dead-dog-who-magically-brought-to-life-somehow-so-the-film-actually-a-story-or-maybe-it's-a-subliminal-statement-about-the-after-life : "Play dead"
dog: *whimpers*
and i got this email from veena... well she got some .. interesting results...
I'M SORRY
i thought Cs and above were passes... people don't make any of this stuff clear... i'm not saying she's thick... she just didn't try... and then complained about it... which is annoying...
and honey ... u spelt liar wrong...
25th ... jen and i go to camden... komal, harsha and hasmita can't come so we go alone...
yay we had some good fun
H I G H L I G H T S O F T H E D A Y
Jen: I gave the Pringles man glasses and stubble... Me : oohhh... KINKY!
i got
yeah... that's off a tee shirt we saw in camden .. hehe
Shaz [ When it seems so right and it feels so right, man, it had to be right.] says: hey QUACK/MOO/OINK says: saaalene.. imma be on with x factor finishes QUACK/MOO/OINK says: ^^^^^^ Shaz [ When it seems so right and it feels so right, man, it had to be right.] says: ok QUACK/MOO/OINK says: brb QUACK/MOO/OINK says: its back i think Shaz [ When it seems so right and it feels so right, man, it had to be right.] says: yeh Shaz [ When it seems so right and it feels so right, man, it had to be right.] says: byee!!
yuk..... there's a louis walsh fanatic on now... no i'm not watching it's on in the other room.... YUK... ok my dear mother is complaining about my loud typing... even though i've chopped off all my nails... lol i'ma go knit and then put some buttons on this nice bright n cheap bag i got from Primark 3 POUNDS! IMPULSE BUY AND A HALF!! lol just gonna Shaz it up... BUTTONS! hurrah! AND PINS! DOUBLE HURRAH...
HMMM... i need something else to hurrah...
oh yeh J if ur reading this... i think you may... I DROPPED ANOTHER STITCH.... gawd i'm thick..
peace, love and empathy
Shaz x August 23 ooh blogthings!!
HEY MY BOOB'S ARE REAL!!
hey there!ok this dumbasspieceofshit wasn't working yesterday so i need 2 copy n paste a previous blog ... SO WAIT...
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the blog about my 2 favouritest jennys in the whole little world!!
heya... and a special hello 2 jenny.. i think she's the only one bothered enough 2 realise i accidentally posted ONE blog TWICE... that makes me look stupid in two ways.. a) WHY DO IT TWICE? b) WHY DO IT AT ALL? hmm i won't ponder too much i may hurt myself... haha A l k a l i n e T r i o - S h e T o o k H i m T o T h e L a k e Do you remember the story of the boy and his first date? i love that song... whenever i think of matt skiba i think of this thing i read about him in Kerrang... he wants to be cremeated (i've probably spelt that wrong!!) and then put into a vibrator for his wife... it's sweet in a twisted "matt-skiba" way isn't it!! ooh veena has just told me that rohoney has my phone hurrah ... i shall get it 2mra!! wo0page lol (jas' word!) yeh .. butt hurts.. went cycling.. bloody hell wanstead park in bumpy!! oh yeh i wanted to go for a picnic with u guys... if u want it to happen let me know... harsh and hasmita had 1 planned but it didn't go ahead... but i really wanna do that ... it'd be fun! even if it rained lol hehe aw! jenny l. is sooo brill!! she's also a hoovering freak!! Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:u kno whats fun? Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says: hoovering rice Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:makes such a great sound!! Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says: ([x.Rape.x])..([I Got Bored.. So I.([xHOOVEREDx]).The Kitchen Ceiling..([.I.([.HEART.]).U.]).([x.You.x]) says:tehehe..!!! ([x.Rape.x])..([I Got Bored.. So I.([xHOOVEREDx]).The Kitchen Ceiling..([.I.([.HEART.]).U.]).([x.You.x]) says:me shall try that..!! ([x.Rape.x])..([I Got Bored.. So I.([xHOOVEREDx]).The Kitchen Ceiling..([.I.([.HEART.]).U.]).([x.You.x]) says: i never have before..1! Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:([x.Rape.x])..([I Got Bored.. So I.([xHOOVEREDx]).The Kitchen Ceiling..([.I.([.HEART.]).U.]).([x.You.x]) says:add to list of things to be hoovered.. Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says: tis greeet Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:ooh i'm blogging.. let's make a list of stuff that's good 2 hoover!! ([x.Rape.x])..([I Got Bored.. So I.([xHOOVEREDx]).The Kitchen Ceiling..([.I.([.HEART.]).U.]).([x.You.x]) says: THE CEILINGS..!! ([x.Rape.x])..([I Got Bored.. So I.([xHOOVEREDx]).The Kitchen Ceiling..([.I.([.HEART.]).U.]).([x.You.x]) says:rice.. ([x.Rape.x])..([I Got Bored.. So I.([xHOOVEREDx]).The Kitchen Ceiling..([.I.([.HEART.]).U.]).([x.You.x]) says: uncooked beans.. Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:kitchen ceiling? i tried it 2 day!! RAWKS! Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says: WOAH YEAH! ([x.Rape.x])..([I Got Bored.. So I.([xHOOVEREDx]).The Kitchen Ceiling..([.I.([.HEART.]).U.]).([x.You.x]) says:FOOK YEAH..!!! XD Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says: lool ok new list time!! rice flies dried beans string scrunched up tissues (though tis pontential for a major blockage hehe!) i shall add more!! *queue evil and manic laugh* *shaz's "oh-fuck-my-queue" look* mwhahahahahahahahaha "THERE IT IS!" huh where'd that voice come from? ARGH COME BACK! I WON'T HURT U..... much! hmm... did some diy yesterday night... hehe drilling is fun... but just seems so damn symbolic 2 the male race hehe HAS ANYONE GOT MR IFILL'S EMAIL ADDRESS? I NEED HIM TO ANSWER ME A QUESTION... TIS URGENT PEOPLE... ARGH ... I DOUBT ANY1 WITH IT WILL SEE THIS haha i've been self diagnosing again... i think i seek symbolism from life way too much ... but it's an addiction for me... i don't know why but then does that lonely drunk on the corner of monega road know why they crave ethanol so? **NOTE : i have no idea if it IS ethanol in beer and stuff so.. erm yeh... but i will try to find out!!** Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:is ethanol alcohol? Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says: Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:DUDE! You have just sent a Nudge! drunknmunky says: Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:drunknmunky says: what Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:tis 4 my blog Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says: i need another word for alcohol Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:something that sounds clinical Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says: drunknmunky says: what Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:tis 4 my blog Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says: i need another word for alcohol Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:something that sounds clinical Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says: drunknmunky says: cholestrol Shaz [ From The Floorboards Up ] says:excuses are like assholes... everyones got one lolness and a half and some more....!!! YOU CAN'T FOOL ME DENNIS! MWHAHAHAHA! ok need to pee... i'm gonna go... tis weird that i use that as a time marker!! lol damn i shud use my watch more often!! lol ANYWAYS...
today is gonna suck .. well a bit..
yesterday was cool... went to komal's in the morning with jenny we were painting those shoes we got from New Look hehe I CAN MULTI-TASK!! well i was eating a solero (*american accent* "and tottally ruined my diet!") AND painting grass on my left shoe... or was it my right? ok now i don't seem so great...
me n jen then went to my aunt's. it was nice to actually talk to jen about ryan and sahdev without having my head bitten off... it's made me feel so much better i haven't felt so i dunno relieved in a sense i can just TALK to her... there's no hate or anything... and i hope it's the same for her... but seriously it did help
after, my aunt took me n my brother's to my other aunt's house in west wycombe lol i actually had to use an a-z .. hey i wasn't as crap as i'd expected myself to be!!
BUT when we got there... they weren't in so we ended up sitting in the car doin bugger all... for a whole hour... yuk... then everyone got back... we were told Jake learnt how to say "Fuck Off" and was screaming it in the travel agents! hehe oops i mean what a naughty boy... well I didn't teach him that!! well i WANTED to teach him how 2 say "So what..."
right now... my aunt is late .. she was meant 2 be here at 9... (well i only woke up at quarter to... but that's not the issue at hand people!!)
on the tv : apparently even cow's have accents... well i do .. DU-DU-TOOOOSH hehe yeh ok i'm no comedienne... rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh
ok she's here... brb
back i'm just waiting for Jen now... my aunt was meant to bring over this dieting book but she's forgotten
 dammit...
i bloody well hope Joyce is gonna be in
ok my aunt's gone and jen has arrived so i think we'll go lol we're just randomly recording stuff onto her mp3
we shall be off... c u guys laterrrrrrrrrr
xxx August 19 b o r e d s h i t l e s sHEY.
had 2 go kent 2day. ergh. 5am start. didn't want 2 get out of the shower... so waaaaarm!!
had a pretty shitty day
oh gawd i cried in the car... i'm such a dork... i sat in the middle of Shibi and Sulekha auntie and just let rip (silently) when i was listening to Coldplay's - The Scientist
i guess it made me think too much ... lol maybe my brain over heated!! haha
argggggh, i may have to reconsider my options.... for a-levels
either...:
OPTION A : English Lit, media, French, Sociology
i'd drop french
could lead 2 a degree in media n communications
OPTION B : Chem, bio, maths (stats), media
i'd HAVE to drop media... and this combo cud lead 2 pharmacueticals
right... media is soemthing i do like.. but lets face it .. i won't get a job in it ... so i'll have to give up the nice stuff... and be boring and give up on the stuff i wanna do
i had a dream .. to teach english n media... (lol mr ifill had a part in that)
but now i've been niggled to the point i've got to look at the material points to my life... i cud be comfy on a teacher's salary.. or COOOOMMMMMMFFFY on another
but do u suffer and follow the dream? August 17 tis the badger's nadgers! (yeh-yeah!)bonjour mes petits!
hi well just got home from shopping with jen ... got some erm.. "sneakers" ? form New Look that Jen and i hope to decorate with *air quote* "stolen" acrylic paints from Tish actually she probably won't notice! (Jen says "She's WELL thick")
I GOT MY EARS PIERCED !! A G A I N
so that's 2 holes an ear! that's a weird way of putting it.... yes .... yes it is!
didn't hurt at all... just a bit uncomfortable but shud be ok if i keep cleaning them (now where are those bloody pot-it notes...? OR!!! i could take a bar of soap and write it on the bathroom mirror so when it steams up i'll see the note!! GENIUS! if i may SCREAM so myslelf
↓ which swiftly leads me on to... JEN'S RANDOM BADGES... a personal fav (which inspired one of the sentences above...)
"It's been lovely...
but i have to SCREAM now."
erm oh yeah and thius one i have on my top now from jenny...
"SILICONE FREE"
HAHAHAHA mum n mini auntie just saw that one... hey i think they like it!! lol
WOOOOOO! i just remembered something...
ELLIPSIS!! wo0p wo0p! yeh they're them little dots right? i likes dots i do ! they're me friends!Yellow
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... AW! he said he's missin me! i still can't get over that! i've said it before i'll say it again... i've known some people for more than 5 years now and they wudnt even notcie if i keeled over and died... in front of them.... lol ... aw i love my friends!
LMFAO! SERIOUSLY I'M EVEN GIGGLING AS TYPE THIS! oh and my uncle ALSO broke HIS glasses yesterday... "i was cleaning my desk and they must've fallen down... i went into my room and stepped on something and heard a crunch ... and the WORST thing is... i stepped on 'em again!" "WHY?" my uncle :
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You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper.
At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.
You're an extremely happy, laid back, fun soul. And your lucky yellow underwear can help you get even more out of life.
You were the class clown as a kid, and you still entertain people.
You're somewhat obsessive, especially when it comes to a couple things (like horrifying thoughts or cleanliness).
At Your Highest:
While some of your behavior is quite normal...
Your Power Animal: Eagle
It's likely that you're perfectly fine, though you have your crazy moments.
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